SOULCOLLAGE: um trabalho de arte para usar com o processo da respiração Kylea Taylor,
M.S., M.F.T. is a California licensed Marriage and Family Therapist
(MFC #34901) and is a senior trainer for the Grof Transpersonal
Training at www.holotropic.com.
She is the author of The Breathwork Experience and The Ethics of
Caring and Editor of Practicing Holotropic Breathwork: A Decade
of Articles from The Inner Door. She is the President of Hanford
Mead Publishers, Inc. which has just published the new book, SoulCollage
by Seena B. Frost. Kylea has a private practice in Santa Cruz, California,
USA. www.soulcollage.com / www.hanfordmead.com.
from "The Healing Breath", a Journal of Breathwork Practice, Psychology
and Spirituality - Volume 3, No. 3, September 2001
Breathwork and SoulCollage - the first experiment.
I puttered around the kitchen in the big open area of our home
making brunch for the small group of participants in an intimate
Breathwork workshop. On the other side of the kitchen counter,
our dining room table was extended to its fullest range to accommodate
the six people. This morning, after their Breathwork experiences
of the day before, they were sitting around our table, piled with
magazines, cans of rubber cement, and small stacks of pre-cut
mat board cards. Following the simple SoulCollage™ directions,
they were moving around fragments of pictures they had cut from
magazines, greeting cards, photos, postcards, catalogues, and
calendars, fitting them together in surprising new ways and gluing
them down on cards.
The deep, meditative mood in the room contrasted with the chaos
of magazines, partially cut-out images, half-glued cards. Jai
Uttal chanted Om Namah Shivaya from my favorite CD, but the mood
was due to more than music. These six people and their two facilitators
(Jim and I) had spent the whole previous day together during two
Holotropic Breathwork sessions. Emerging from the sessions, the
breathers had begun to look through magazines, photos, cards,
and calendars to find images to make their first SoulCollage cards.
This Sunday morning they had returned to finish their cards. All
six were silent, yet in communion at a deeper level than words,
each also in creative connection with his or her center. They
focused during these morning hours on this new SoulCollage method
as a way to express their experiences from Breathwork. As I prepared
brunch for these engaged and contented artists, I free-associated
my own mental collage to represent the moment. Images flashed
through my mind of quilting bees, community gardening, and visits
to large, ancient cathedrals and generated emotional flavors of
community, music, mood, spirit, growing things, and art.
I had made several dozen SoulCollage cards myself. The SoulCollage
process had been so satisfying to me as a way to express the inexpressible,
that I decided to make it available to others. As a one-person
publisher I had been spending the last three years working on
producing the book, SoulCollage: An Intuitive Collage Process
for Individuals and Groups by Seena B. Frost. I believed the process
could be a way for people to do self-exploration in an easy, non-threatening,
and fulfilling way. I also had suspected that Breathwork and SoulCollage
were meant for each other - that the deep experiences of Breathwork
could be well-expressed through SoulCollage and that SoulCollage
in turn could help amplify and integrate those experiences. I
watched that interlacing that first morning and was relieved and
happy to see others finding SoulCollage card-making as compelling
and valuable as I had found it.
After that first SoulCollage success, I introduced it at two other
Holotropic Breathwork events this year (2001). One was the Trauma
and Transformation six-day training module of the Grof Transpersonal
Training (GTT) in Sedona, AZ, USA. The other was the two-week
Certification Intensive, which concludes GTT's nine-week, resi-dential
training requirements, and this year was held in Taos Ski Valley,
NM, USA. Some of the personal quotes that follow in this article
are from participants who attended those two Holotropic Breathwork
trainings.
Holotropic Breathwork has always included art.
Holotropic Breathwork has always included an art component to
its technique. The Grofs, developers of Holotropic Breathwork,
both brought art to the technique. Christina Grof had worked as
an art teacher. Her own art had facilitated and illustrated her
personal spiritual emergence and recovery from post-traumatic
stress. Stan Grof had used Joan Kellogg's technique of "mandala"
drawing effectively as part of the research protocol for the therapeutic
use of LSD in his early work at the Maryland Psychiatric Research
Institute in Baltimore, Maryland. From these separate streams,
the Grofs had incorporated their own synthesis of "mandala" art
into Holotropic Breathwork.
The mandala art of Holotropic Breathwork
At the end of a Holotropic Breathwork session, participants usually
are presented with a large circle penciled onto a sheet of drawing
paper. Breathers are encouraged to take the opportunity to express
themselves in this non-verbal, but concrete way even before the
verbal sharing. It is a step towards integrating the intangible,
non-ordinary experience of Breathwork back into tangible, ordinary
life. Often participants draw something that will remind them
of the experiential events of their session. Sometimes what they
draw is mysterious. Its meaning, immediately after the session,
is as yet unclear. These "mandalas," as we call them are usually
descriptive of the process just experienced, but occasionally
seem to be predictive of an unfolding process through which more
will be revealed at a later time. Sometimes the mandala tells
a story. Sometimes it simply expresses emotion by the placement
and intensity of colors.
What is SoulCollage?
SoulCollage is an expressive art process - the process of making
a deck of cards, one card at a time, using collage to depict one
experience or one kind of energy per card. Many pieces of collage
art are rather large and have a multiplicity of messages and images.
SoulCollage cards often are more simple. Each 5 inch by 8 inch
card in one's grow-ing deck of cards represents a facet of oneself
(e.g., a sub-personality, an energy, or an archetype), which one
finds relevant to and operant in one's life. Or, a card can depict
an experience (dream or journey) such as a Breathwork journey.
Author of SoulCollage and developer of the process, Seena B. Frost,
says that, "the whole deck reflects the panorama which is 'you'
- your SoulCollage."
SoulCollage and the therapeutic objectives of Breathwork
High on the list of therapeutic benefits of Breathwork are connection
to self and others and increased trust in one's own creativity
and self-expression. Breathwork induces a non-ordinary state of
consciousness, which enables one to reconnect with parts of oneself
from which one has become disconnected. Because Holotropic Breathwork
is done mainly in groups, there is also a benefit of reconnection,
even sometimes reconciliation, between people and groups. Participants
connect to strangers and see the common thread of humanity through
entering the deep well of spirit together. People who know each
other deepen their relationships by doing the work together. People
who come from different ethnic or cultural backgrounds often find
that greater respect and understanding replaces their preconceived
and alienating beliefs about differences.
SoulCollage also facilitates connection with self, connection
with others, and artistic self-expression, which is a way to make
both internal and external connection. SoulCollage provides a
means for connection and self-expression immediately following
the session, The connection continues as people go on to make,
reflect on and use, and share their cards.
Maria Santos-Elgart feels that Breathwork and SoulCollage "complement
each other as techniques of self-discovery."
After a Breathwork session,
doing a artwork such as SoulCollage helps to center oneself,
to ground and have more clarity over the experience, have
a better sense of one's feelings - something about our hands
bringing form out of the inner to the outer world. SoulCollage
helps in the integration of a Holotropic Breathwork session.
Connection with one's own experience and self
Arnold theorizes that the Inner Healer1 might more easily
use collage as an art process in healing work:
SoulCollage is immediately
rewarding because one can select/work with pictures that one
is not able to draw. This opens up new inner material and
relationships to be expressed. I feel that the "resonance"
one experiences when tearing out and working with a picture
is an important healing signal from one's Inner Healer. This
contrasts the confusion and uncertainty that a wounded person
normally feels.
Jeff was surprised to find images, in a synchronistic way, which perfectly
expressed his process:
I had a session that
involved raging against the unjust use of force, especially
by uniformed people against unarmed folks (especially minorities).
I was amazed as I ran through a couple magazines how many
pictures seemed relevant. This tended to intensify and somehow
affirm that the archetype I encountered is really present.
Then arranging the images around a central figure that I drew
added to this feeling of having touched on a "real" issue.
I've not done any sandbox2 work, but there was
a "concrete" quality to even the use of the images that added
power to the art-work part of my integration. Also I find
that the collage "locks in" the energy and feeling of the
session in a way that my other art hasn't, when I later want
to review it.
Images bypass the mind to select you
Unlike existent decks of cards (Tarot and others) that one can buy
ready-made, the SoulCollage cards contain the personal images you
select ¾ or the images that select you ¾ coming straight through your
Soul, bypassing the mind. Author Frost says that the process is a
somewhat mysterious one:
You may or may not know
what the image you select means at first. You may not know
how you will use it and even if you will. What you feel is
a power in this particular one. As you leaf through magazines,
something stops and holds you, calls to you in a mysterious
way. Something goes straight into your soul, bypassing the
mind. Something vital in the image stirs you, and your imagination
becomes engaged. You tear it out and save it!
SoulCollage cards assist in amplification of Breathwork experiences
Holotropic Breathwork facilitators are trained never to analyze someone's
experience, but to assist in amplifying that experience by increasing
awareness, or suggesting resources through which a participant may
discover more facets of the experience and find personal meaning from
them. For example, Arnold reports:
SoulCollage has amplified
my Breathwork process. For example, I start with a picture
of myself as a young child who I experience often in my breathing
sessions. As the collage develops, I find myself including
pictures of trains, which I loved as a child; and also pictures
of other favorite activities such as playing in the sand and
swimming. The resulting collage consists of my happy childhood
interests that I had forgotten about, but were elicited by
the SoulCollage process after a breathing session.
Jeff Bassett, who was certified at the two-week intensive in Taos
in July found that,
SoulCollage is as (or
more) effective as mandala drawing, for me. I find that selecting
images (and just going through a lot of them to pick what
has charge) is a very evocative process in itself. It definitely
helps "draw out" the core feelings from my session.
SoulCollage cards may help integrate Breathwork experiences
During the Trauma and Transformation module, participants depicted
both trauma and transformation on their SoulCollage cards. Arnold
describes...
the ability of the SoulCollage
to express and help integrate opposites within my psyche.
A collage can show pictures of strong animals versus weak
animals; or loving people versus killing people. The collage
provides a safe container for the expression of conflicting,
conscious/unconscious energies within myself. The collage
is like a snapshot of a whole gestalt or of a COEX 3 in one's Unconscious. Looking at a collage over time helps
me assimilate and gives me a new perspective on previously
separated parts of myself.
In the final session of a group, the cards provide a focus for individual
closure and give a tangible art piece for each to take home from the
sessions' experiences. The non-ordinary experience is validated and
honored by a creation, which can even be used again and again to contact
that personality part or archetypal energy. The final sharing group
of the Trauma and Transformation module was quite moving as
participants passed their stun-ning cards around the group. Parrish
wrote about that final sharing,
I saw the power of the
cards when everyone shared their mandalas or SoulCollage cards.
The expressiveness and creativity I saw on the cards made
me realize just how powerful SoulCollage is and especially
after a Breathwork.
Using the SoulCollage Cards in an on-going way
Claire Parrish described her enjoyment in having the SoulCollage cards
as an on-going project during the module:
The way it was set up
in the module I attended was perfect because I could go back
and work on my cards at different times of the day and on
different days. I did not feel pressured to finish. This would
be more difficult in a one-day workshop setting due to the
time constraints. I would still want to offer it and perhaps
let people take cards home to work on.
The process can continue in an on-going way after a workshop as well.
The mat board collage cards are easy to make, keep, transport, and
use. They can be easily ordered as pre-cut blank cards http://www.hanfordmead.com/store/index.php.
Many who make the cards cherish them and delight in sharing them with
family, friends, or in groups. They are a lovely and tangible reminder
of an important experience.
For some the cards become allies on their own Paths. In drawing the
SoulCollage cards from their "deck" in a ceremonial way, they find
the cards "speaking" to them about the on-going questions of life.
This is one way to remember to listen to guidance from different parts
of themselves at crucial times. The book gives examples of how to
use SoulCollage cards in this divinatory or therapeutic way, both
in groups and individually.
Claire Parrish, who is enrolled in the GTT training, suggests that
the SoulCollage process may continue the integration process well
after a Breathwork session is finished. Integration is the process
of bringing more of one's unconscious material to consciousness and
into skillful use in ordinary life and relationship. "Reclaiming"
a memory, a dis-owned emotion, or finding new personal meaning from
fitting together things that had formerly been kept separately.
Two days after one of
my recent Breathwork sessions, I took a magazine I had and
saw some pictures that perfectly illustrated what I was feeling
around the Breathwork. I felt driven and made three cards
out of those pictures. They express so well what I had been
feeling inside for years and could not put into words.
Author Frost describes the divinatory process with SoulCollage thus:
When we draw SoulCollage
cards from our deck and lay them out to consult, it is like
singing over our own dry bones. The cards represent all the
many parts of ourselves, the happy and the sad, the wise and
the foolish, the large and the small. When we lay them out
and sing over them they come to life and reveal to us the
wisdom for which we yearn.
Communion in doing collage work side by side
Although a mandala drawing room is usually quiet after Holotropic
Breathwork, there seems to be a different quality of mood in a room
when people are engaged in the SoulCollage process. Arnold, who was
present at both residential modules when we used the process, noted
that same quality as I had when we did the first SoulCollage/ Breathwork
experiment at my private home-based workshop. He says:
The conscious intent
of Breathwork participants making their SoulCollages affected
me. Everyone seemed to be present and deeply focused in the
work. A deep, meditative field seemed to be encompassing everyone,
yet everyone was having fun. I felt welcomed and I wanted
to join in.
Peggy Wallace has a touching story about bonding with another participant
in the "mandala room" while doing her SoulCollage work:
I sat across the table
from a man who was diligently working (upside down from my
vantage point) on a mandala collage into the early hours of
the morning. We said nothing. We were two of only three people
in the room for hours on end. The only interaction we had
was to pass the paper cement back and forth. I watched as
he constructed his strikingly graphic image - a cross, filled
with diverse people's faces on the background of a blue sky
filled with clouds in a mandala circle.
Early on, I hated what I was doing, but having been in this
same place many times before, I continued trying to hold the
words that came to me while doing the body work after the
Breathwork session: "Love me, kill me." I was envious of the
man across the table from me. His image was better than mine!
Old stuff coming up again. Watching, watching - listening
to the inner voices of criticism - continuing to meticulously
cut out images that drew me to them. Then the pasting... That's
when it all started to come together for me. The background
that I had done with vivid primary colors: red, black, yellow,
blue was the perfect receptacle for the images I had cut out.
Finally, the man got up without saying anything and walked
toward the door. I hadn't seen what he had ended up with.
I ran after him. "May I see what you've done?" These were
the first words we had said to each other. He proudly showed
me his finished mandala. "It's incredible. How wonderful."
I could see in his face that he was not only pleased with
his own work, but pleased that I appreciated it as well. I
no long felt any envy, just pride in what he had done - I
felt as if I had somehow participated in his work. He asked
to see what I was still in process on and commented on the
intensity of the work I had done earlier on when I was laying
down the pastel crayon color and blending it into the paper.
I hadn't noticed, but I knew he was right. I felt as if I
was doing something that had great force and energy in it.
No woosy pastels or color with the paper showing through for
this image! And I also realized when I started to like what
I was doing, I also felt no envy of the image work he was
doing.
We said "Goodnight" and from then on, we who had not spoken
to each other up to that point, greeted each other daily,
danced together on the night before closing and said "Goodbye"
as intimates. I felt our collage work "together" bonded us
to each other in a way that didn't happen for me with anyone
else other than my sitting/breathing partner.
Nonverbal people can communicate deep personal meaning to
others.
Many nonverbal people or people who have something very difficult
to say, such as those who have just had a Breathwork experience, find
that the cards enable them to communicate in an authentic, satisfying
way ¾ first with images, the language of symbols, dreams, and archetypes,
and then after that opening, with words.
Even "non" artists
can create satisfying art
Self-exploration is usually a lonely process with not many ways of
connecting with others. Art or poetry have been traditionally ways
in which a few skilled people have been able to bridge that isolation
and share at levels below the reach of ordinary conversation. SoulCollage
seems to help achieve a communication with others that is not possible
for most of us to do using other artistic media. Even if people find
words adequate to describe their non-ordinary state experiences, the
art done by others can help in understanding them. KiP Walker said,
"Seeing the work of others was inspiring as is the sharing of the
mandalas. The visual always seems to add another dimension to the
words people use to try to describe their work."
The special advantage of SoulCollage is that it requires no skill
in art, yet allows those people with ordinary abilities to express
their deepest personal meaning in a way that others can appreciate.
By choosing and merging images which resonate at the deepest level,
the ordinary person can create an artistic expression which also connects
him or her to others who are conscious at that level.
Maria Santos-Elgart's describes her experience overcoming frustration
at not being able to represent by drawing alone what she felt during
her Breathwork experience:
It helped me to gather
my psychic energy after the Holotropic Breathwork session;
to recognize and accept the depth of the process experienced,
and to represent the highlights of the session through the
images chosen. I always enjoy Stan Grof's suggestion of drawing
mandalas after Holotropic Breathwork sessions, yet I sometimes
feel frustrated for being unable to draw what I envision.
The SoulCollage is a good option for those moments, at times
easier, it is fun how I pick the images, cut and glue and
am surprised by what shows up on the card afterwards.
Seeing the SoulCollage cards of others deepens own experiences
The cards are filled with images that resonate with people's most
inner experiences and so it is common that the cards of other breathers
can affect one at the deepest level. Maria Santos-Elgart said, "I
felt affected by other people's SoulCollage [cards] through the effect
of Oneness; One Soul, many collages." Jeff found that his experiences
of viewing another participant's cards before his own breathing session
triggered emotions that had been deeply buried and thus contributed
to his Breathwork experience.
I was definitely affected
[by her cards] It was very surprising and suddenly overwhelming to
see many of her images spread out in the center of our space, and
move amongst them... My breathing session the day after I encountered
[her] SoulCollage cards was filled with rage... So it definitely facilitated
my process!
Would Holotropic Breathwork trainees
and participants use SoulCollage in their own groups?
Many participants in the Trauma and Transformation module
felt SoulCollage was an important part of that module. Patricia Meadows
subsequently wrote about the process in The Inner Door4[ http://www.breathwork.com/],
"Many participants
seemed deeply immersed in the SoulCollage process throughout
the week (not only after their Breathwork sessions.) "and
highly praised this creative process. One participant expressed:
"I was absorbed in the collage technique. I would like to
suggest that... this collage technique be offered as part
of all modules..."
Others in the GTT Certification Intensive agreed that SoulCollage
is a great addition to Breathwork. Jeff will "definitely make it an
option in workshops I conduct in the future." He says that he wants
to work with the process, however, without having a set agenda of
trying to collect images that seem to fit.
I find those [images]
that have charge and stay open to maybe, or not necessarily,
completing the collage during the course of the day (or weekend,
etc.) But to stay open to the collage letting me know when
it is ready to be finished.
Arnold writes also that the collage sets its own pace:
I would include SoulCollage
as an optional integration tool in any Breathwork workshop
I give because it can appeal to people who cannot draw well.
I would state to the group that the process may be time- consuming.
There may not be enough time during the workshop to complete
one. I definitely would provide magazines, and I would give
the general background and instructions for constructing a
collage. I would emphasize that no one is under pressure to
complete a collage at the workshop. If one makes a collage,
it should be done at one's own pace.
The consensus seems to be that SoulCollage should be offered as an
option, but that nothing should be forced. One common suggestion was
that there be plenty of time allowed for work on SoulCollage projects.
Parrish said, "[SoulCollage] seemed to bring out things from the Breathwork
that were there, but not well defined. The only difficulty is that
there generally is not enough time in a one-day Breathwork setting
to do the cards." Some suggested that one should offer the opportunity
to make either cards or large collages. Peggy Wallace and KiP Walker
both suggested that participants be encouraged to use mixed media,
such as collage and drawing to represent the inner landscape in the
best possible way at the time. Wallace wrote, "I was able to create
something of great value to me by the combination of the two techniques."
KiP Walker envisions that SoulCollage "could be of use in other experiential
workshops that would incorporate movement, meditation, and such."
Notes:
1 "The Inner Healer" is a term used in Holotropic Breathwork and could
be understood as "Higher Power," "Spirit," "Inner Wisdom," or "Creative
Force".
2 This is a reference to Dora Kalff's sandplay therapy which is based
on Jungian concepts.
3 COEX is Grof's theory of Condensed System of Experiences. These
are experiences which are related by emotion and/or body sensation
and grouped together, even though they may be a grouping that includes
biographical, perinatal, and transpersonal types of experiences. More
can be found about this in Grof's book, Beyond the Brain (1985), published
by SUNY Press.
4 The Inner Door. (2001). Santa Cruz, CA: Association for Holotropic
Breathwork. 13:3:9.